“How is your day Tia?” soal Haridz sebaik sahaja melabuhkan punggung duduk di kerusi di sisi kanan Tia. Dah 3 hari dia di tahan di hospital ni dah bosan gila dah. Bila la nak sihat aku nak balik la bosan duduk sini nasib baik Arid ada datang hari-hari. Dialah yang jaga aku 24 jam. Tak adalah 24 jam sangat lebih 12 jam dia tidur je. Hari ni Haridz datang petang sebab dia ada kelas. Semalam dia ponteng. Kawan serumah ada jugak datang melawat tapi aku faham diaorang sibuk datang sekejap je. Alah lagipun bukannya teruk sangat sakit aku demam je. Makan panadol boleh sihat. Rina tu lah kecoh sangat bagitahu Haridz tengok dah kena duduk hospital plus lecture free daripada Haridz. Mamat tu kalau dah bagi lecture tujuh hari tujuh malam pun tak berhenti naik bernanah telinga. Tapi dalam pada tu syukur ada kawan macam Rina dan Haridz sebab ambil berat tentang aku. Paling kurang ada jugak yang nak kongsi kasih sayang. Aha! Bunyi macam gedik. Lantakkan. “Weyh aku tanya nie macam kau hari ni?” suara
Dear you, My life had turns upside down. I'm not the girl who deserve you. I'm full of flaws. How I wish I could tell you how I feel, how hard it is to bear everything alone. To fall for you without a reason. Only if I know the reason behind it, so I could erase and destroy them. It's been eleventh years since we met for the first time and almost 5 years I'm having this thought on you. It's wrong I know. I begged to HIM for a help. I just want to clear my mind. Frankly I don't solely believe in love or relationship. I'm looking for a friend and a companion. Who I can talk with beyond the topic of marriage or love. I've been living alone for more than 4 years right now. I'm used to do things on my own. But sometimes when my mind get wild with thoughts I wish I have someone to talk to. Talking about such random things. I love to learn as I know how hard it is to be ignorant. To left behind. I've been working hard so I could stand on my own. Ma
lately ni aku macam something rasa something. entah something yang tidak seronok pastinya. tadi paper pertama. kesimpulan down. sangat. couldnt make it =( about to give up. entah. sekarang hati rasa tak tenang kepala dan badan tak berada dalam keadaan yang baik. tak boleh tidur. aku tak rasa selesa. sangat tak selesa. kepala rasa kebas. telinga macam panas tekak sakit yang pelik. cant eat cant rest macam ada something yang menghuru harakan hidup aku some alien have take over my soul ppftttt.. =.=' doakan aku aku kena bertahan. for the old days that i miss and i missed for all things happen aku hanya harap untuk apa yang terbaik untuk aku doakan aku.. doakan aku.. if this the wake up call from HIM. Alhamdullilah. Aku perlu lebih dekat pada dia
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